Hi, Pain –

You became too much to bear and so I ran away. I’ve become a grief refugee. I know I can’t escape you completely but I came to stay in a place where contentment exists. Where the energy of honest people and joyful chaos fill in the gaps of the day so that it bursts with life. They’re not mine but I can borrow them for a little while. It is a second-hand happiness. It is a life raft as I navigate through a stagnant ocean of despair. You’ll still be there, just on the other side of familiar shores , but maybe hope will be there, too. I guess we’ll see.